I think part of the very reason we decided to create a body for our spirits was to experience touch.

So, yes, I am very touchy-feely. Especially after My Direct Experience of Truth  - I actually became a tree-hugger, and started huggin, kissing, and caressing many trees! Yay!
:) Which just felt soooooooooo good!

The following blog entries describe my views on touch and intimacy in more detail:

http://iloveyou.gaia.com/blog/2008/2/hand-holding

http://iloveyou.gaia.com/blog/2008/3/intimate_friendship

Thanks very much!

From my Journal: June 4th, 2008.


So, I was playing the flute in the park today.
I just learnt to play a song, an Indian lullaby.
As I played, I closed my eyes and imagined playing it to a child,
and soon, he fell asleep. I imagined playing it to another child and she fell asleep too. And I soothed three or five other children to sleep.

When I opened my eyes, something very interesting and fun happened - the kids in the park started clapping, I said, "Thank you," a little unsure how to respond,
and they surrounded me, and one kid said, "It's so sad but so beautiful."
And he said, "Play us another song." At first, I said, "That's the only song I know. I am still learning." He said, "Ok." But then I learnt another song, and they just kept on clapping as I paused in each play. One kid even said, "I wish I had money", checking his pockets. Then he turned to me and asked, "Are you coming tomorrow?" I said, "Ya."

After all a while, I began reading some poems from "To Bless the Space Between Us" and then began to walk home, using a different path from the one I came. As I left, One kid said, "You've got really good songs".

As I walked home and saw the purple flowers on the ground, filled with a desire to play with them, the following poem came through me:

Sweet child,
I am so sad to see you falling asleep,
knowing that I will not be able to be
with your bubbly waking self for at least another 8 hours.

But at the same time,
I feel so happy to be
with the beauty of your sleeping self,
and so joyous to know
that you are getting nourished
by the Nurse of Sleep.

I am so sad to not be with you
in your Dream Land
as faeries soothe you in your dreams
and hug you and kiss you.

But at the same time,
I am so happy to see
your peaceful lips,
your eyes closed in total tranquility,
your cheeks fully rested.

As I observe all these feelings well up with me,
I become one with the Observer within me,
and I feel, at last, at total Peace,
filled with a Total Acceptance
of all the contradictions within me,
all my complexity,
all my simplicity,
all my vastness,
all my smallness,
all my infinity,
all my infinitesimal.

Our Child, who is no where and now here,
Who remembers who We really are and who guides us, always,
Wholy is Your Name.
Our Hearts are now bigger, as Big as the You that is Me,
Our Will has been done,
Our Bodies already filled with all that is needed,
Forgiveness already experienced,
The illusion has been recognized for what It really is -
A Way for us to Experience Truth, Love and Union,
to Experience what we came here to experience.
Truth is the Origin and Destination,
And the Love that We are is the kingdom, the power and the glory, for ever and ever. And so it is. In Gratitude. Amen.

 
And here is a related blog that I wrote recently:

I am not a child of God. I am a father of God.
God is simply the part of me that remembers Who I am and keeps reminding me of who I am, keeps reminding me that God and I are One.

I chose to forget to experience rememberance.

I chose to contract to experience expansion.

After my contraction, I deliberately chose to forget my original expanded nature. But I was smart. I left clues in my journey forward, that would remind me of Who I am, a little bit at a time, so that each time a clue found me, or I found a clue, which could come in the form of a song from the radio, a word in a book, or during meditation, or anything else, I expanded a little bit, and thus I would experience expansion. It was the only way I could experience expansion. This collection of clues - which is completely my creation, is what I call God. Thus I created God, not the other way round - God did not create me. Thus God also is a part of me. God and I are indeed One. It just seems so separate from me and indeed higher than me simply because I had forgotten so much of Who I am, so much of my original Power and Wisdom and Love.

So Who created Me? I have no fricking clue!
Do we ever question who created God?
But perhaps there is value also in questioning who created the Awesomeness, the Amazingness that is Me.......

Ah Life!

Sweet Life!

June 19th, 2008

I used my version of the Lord's Prayer to do the Lord's Prayer chakra meditation, and I had an incredible experience. I felt my heart expand and become as big as the entire universe plus many universes combined. It was mind-blowing. And I had an understanding of things that probably cannot even be described in words.

However, I will describe some things in words that can be described in words, to the best of my ability - mainly, the subject of sex. Yes, sex.

Understand that these are just my attempts at understanding and may or may not be truth.

You see, I use the Lord's Prayer chakra meditation quite often to balance and harmonise all my chakras. But the words used in reference to the sex - "Lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from evil" - I really felt those words needed to be changed since they could easily be misinterpreted or twisted to mean that sex is bad. These words were good for those times and those people.

So I changed the words to "The illusion is seen for what it is - A way for us to experience Truth, Love, Union."

Because, I believe the temptation that is being talked about here is really the temptation to be lost in the illusion, in the separation, the temptation to see the pleasure of sex as nothing more than the pleasure of nerve endings rubbing and stimulating each other - thus, the saying, "being treated like just a piece of meat" and so forth. The temptation - to see it as merely two beings in separate bodies, doing something random together that is momentarily pleasurable. The temptation, also, to be addicted to this pleasure, believing that happiness lies in this, when, in reality, happiness lies within, and we can indeed be happy for no reason.

And thus every religion cautions us against sex, some even going to the extreme of advising us to not have sex, period. Others, to not have sex before 'marriage', whatever that means.

The irony here is that the very reason this world, this illusion, was created, was so that we could have sex, and thus experience Union. You see, in the Oneness, it is impossible to experience Union - this can only exist when there is more than One - thus duality was created.

So why this belief that sex is bad?

I believe this belief exists not because sex is bad, but precisely because it is wonderful.

Not only wonderful, but it can lead us, if enacted consciously, with full intent, it can lead us back to that fully extended state known as Union and Oneness - perhaps, too quickly. More on this later.

You see, in order to play the Human Game, we needed two phases - in Phase One, we do everything in our power to limit us - with, in fact, believe it or not, full help from our Expanded Self, Our Inner Guidance, Our Child. Thus, we are born as powerless, helpless babies, totally dependent on others for our very survival - can't even talk or walk. This is how we experience the Divine Aspect known as expansion - we need to contract before experiencing expansion. The No-sex rule is indeed one of those things that limit us. You see, in Phase 1, all beliefs, all ideas, all idealogies, just HAD to be distorted to hide the Truth - just enough for us to survive, and maybe eve thrive a little bit, but not too much, not enough for us to actually expand too much.

Once we reach Phase 2 - and the timing is different for each individual - something she may even have decided even before birth, which, by the way, is the reason why it's best not to judge others for what we consider to be their distorted beliefs - perhaps they just wish to play the game a little longer - best to just send them love and blessings - well, this is when we learn and maybe even experience more and more of Truth, and for some, it is a big WHAM! all at once, and for others, a trickle at a time.

Now, imagine going to all the trouble of creating this illusion, using so much energy and power, and then, having conscious sex at, say, age 14 or 15, and reaching our fully expanded state, or Oneness, and going back to the Light. Well, not much time to play the human game, is it? No fun, you see. But it is also a loss for our parents, who have invested so much of their happiness, pride, energy, resource and fuel on us, only to lose us to conscious death, because it is indeed a death, albeit conscious - it feels like a loss to them, because they too, like most of humanity, still thinks that happiness lies outside of us.

Of course, most of humanity still does not have conscious sex, and so still have not reached that Oneness, though quite a significant number have reached Enlightement, or Transcendance, which is pretty close, like a taste of Oneness - the reason, being all the cultural negative beliefs and guilt around sex.

So, why then have my Inner Guidance inspired me with these words and inspired me to post them here, now? Why let the cat out of the bag now? Why spill the beans now? Why reveal all this now?

Because, I believe, humanity is ready, and have collectively decided that we want to play a new Game. In fact, when I went on a shamanic journey a few months ago, I saw a vision of humanity in the future when we will no longer need duality or illusion to experience Love, Union and Ecstasy - merely, the memory of illusion or duality would be enough.