I look at these droplets of water falling from the shower - somehow, they shimmer with, as Love, and when each drop touches me, I feel so loved and loving, and I feel like I am Love itself, and so is the water, and so it is like Love touching Love, Love kissing Love, Love massaging Love, Love soothing Love, Love, caressing Love. I feel each drop fall over the strands of my hair, my shoulders, my neck, my arms, the hairs on my arms, my chest, my nipples, my stomach, my hands, my thighs, my balls, my dick, the hairs around my manhood, my legs, my knees, my ankles, my toes, my feet - I feel it all in sensual detail, and I feel pleasure like I have never felt before, and somehow, I feel like I feel all this not because the water is there and I am here, and the water hits me - no, it is more like, I feel it because I AM the water also. It is the same when I look at the water droplets or hear the sound - it is not like the water is there and I am here, and I am looking - I see it because I AM It. I hear it because I AM it too. And it is as if the water droplets are alive, and that they have an intention, and only one intention - Love - and this love is expressed as giving me pleasure, feel-good sensations all over my skin and organs, especially my heart - this love is also expressed as beautiful lights around the water droplets for my viewing pleasure - this love is also esxpressed as soothing sounds when the waters touch my body and even the tub below.
It all started when I looked at a flower - normally, this is how we perceive the 'outside' world - I am here, and there is a flower over there, and I am not the flower, and the flower is not me. I am here, a separate being, looking at, through the sense of sight, through the retinas behind my eyes, a separate flower, outside of me. But what I perceived that moment was much deeper than that. It is hard to explain but I shall anyway.
What I felt was that when I looked at the flower, I was, in a sense, becoming the flower, or a part of me was becoming the flower, and the flower, or a part of the flower, was becoming me, and there was this merging of energy, and this was why I 'saw' the flower - but this time the flower was far more radiant and beautiful than usual - not only the flower, but even the leaves and the stems around the flower, and the dirt on the ground too! And in addition, I also 'felt' this energy coming from the flower towards me, and this energy moving from me towards the flower.

There are 2 ways to live life - believe there is something to protect and defend - and thus also believe there are some things you have to do to protect and defend - some healers, for example, believe that they can't touch others too much, or else, their energy would be 'drained' or that they would absorb the other person's 'negative energy' - and thus they believe they must wash themselves with salt water after too much touching, or do a number of other things - I know, I was one of those healers - but there is only so much you can do to defend - in the end, it is too tiring to keep defending and protecting - sooner or later, I always got seriously sick.

And then I realized - it is so much simpler to believe that I have NOTHING to defend - because, now I have NOTHING to do to defend my self. Life is so much more simple now.

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May Everyone Experience True Reality some day!