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Your Emotional Instrument Control Panel

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 15:40:55 GMT

Your Instrument Panel.

Ecstasy YOU FEEL POWERFUL UP HERE.
Joy, Bliss Your Divine Self lives up here all the time.
Knowing , Empowerment This energy is light, fast, flowing, unresisted.
Fr eedom
Love, Appr eciation More Expansive Energy
Passion, Eager ness, Enthusiasm
Happiness, Positive Expectation
Belief
Optimism, Confidence, I Can Do It
Hopefulness, Seeing Possibilities, Curiosity
Self Esteem, Inter est, Courage
Contentment, Relaxation, Emptiness
Acceptance, Bor edom, Don't Car e -------------- This is a resting zone.
Pessimism, I Give Up
Frustration, Ag gravation, Impatience --------- THE TIPPING POINT-------
Overwhelm, Str essed, Hard Work --- Much of America lives here and thinks it's normal.
Disappointment
Doubt, Confusion, Uncertainty
Wor r y, Negative expectation
Discouragement, Quit, Fatigue
Anger --- A bridge to get your power/energy back; it blasts you upward.
Revenge
Hatr ed, Rage More Contracted Energy
Jealousy, Desir e that feels bad, Lack
Guilt, Blame, Pr oject on others
Fear YOU FEEL POWERLESS DOWN HERE.
Sadness, Grief, Depr ession The energy is slow, heavy, dense, resistant.
Shame, Unworthiness, Despair, Apathy You can't hear The Divine as well.

Every emotion on the Instrument Panel is Divine Energy at varying frequencies.

All emotions are valuable information. Appreciate them all!

Activity: Demonstrate this clearly to yourself. Get up and act out the states, from
bottom to top. This is especially useful if you are stuck, or have difficulty feeling. Physical

movement will un-stick you quickly. Stop reading and physically act out the whole range of

emotions now. Make it silly and fun and uninhibited. Which ones have more or faster energy?

Write in your journal how it felt and what you noticed.

The small self is by nature fearful, doubtful and resistant, and has no interest in giving up

control and going with the flow, but your intention to feel good and put the Large Self in the

driver's seat will prevail over time. Be gentle and compassionate with your small self, which is doing

the best it can with its limited consciousness. It is fear-based, and so might resist anything new and

unknown, just because it's new -- even if it might be better.

From your Large Self perspective, make the decision to soothe the small self and have it take a

back seat. Decide to let the Large Self fly the plane. It has the knowledge of all the instruments

and all the flight manuals and all the weather charts in the world. It has the larger perspective.

Let the Large Self fly the plane.

First priority is to get back in touch with your feelings and get your altimeter calibrated again.

Most people have gotten so used to negative emotion that they think it's normal, and pay no

attention to it. Just start feeling. Notice, "I feel this, I feel that". No fudging. You are where you are.

Just say, "This is what I feel." Just start noticing where you are on the altimeter. Don't make it bad,

it just is what it is. It's good to know where you are!

There is no bad place to be on the scale. It's all just information. Wherever you are is OK,

because from this day forward, by looking at your instrument panel, you will know how to move

up. When we're caught up in the stories we tell ourselves, about how we got where we didn't want

to be, and whose fault it is, and how powerless we are to change it, we keep creating more of that

thing that we don't want. The game is to soothe yourself and tell yourself a better "story", one that

leads even a few steps up the scale. Easy does it. One step at a time.

Truth is not the issue here. Where you are is "true" only because you created it, or you bought

into a reality someone else created. You made it true. Give it back, and create your own! You can

now create something else that is just as "true" by changing your altitude. Changing your story

about it will help you feel more powerful, and feeling powerful creates powerful realities.

The emotional scale is the instrument panel in your airplane. You check it to see where you

are, what your altitude is, how much fuel you have, which way you're headed, and what you might

need to do to adjust for a good flight, and to end up where you want to go. You don't judge the

instrument panel on your airplane as good or bad; it's just information you need. If you don't like

what you see, there's plenty of time to make adjustments. No worries.

If you can read your instrument panel, you can get anywhere. If you can't see it or don't know

how to read it, you often end up in unexpected places experiencing things you don't want, and

wondering why. Now you'll never be lost again.

Unwanted or "negative" emotions are not bad - they are useful data. They tell you where you

are, and how far you are from your Large Self. It is supposed to feel bad to be headed downward!

Your feelings will also tell you how far you've come up, so you can chart your journey.

You wouldn't ignore the map if it said you were headed in a direction you didn't want to go,

and you know that if you're pointed at San Francisco and you keep flying, you will arrive. You

wouldn't ignore your altimeter if it said you were headed for the ground. You'd adjust your altitude.

Then you'd feel just a little bit better each time it registered a lift. That little bit can save your life.

If your nose is pointed down, it's not important to get to the highest high right now - all

that's important is that the nose of your plane gets tipped up just a little bit, and that you're headed

in the general direction you want to go. Just go for a little feeling of relief. You must value small

gains. Small gains are everything.

Point your nose upward and relax.

~ Lola Jones, Things are Going Great in my Absence: How to let go and let the Divine do the Heavy Lifting

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My Personal 10 Commandments

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:55:47 GMT

1.Thou shall have sex every day, either with thyself, or with others, or both, preferably with both.

2. Thou shall love and love and love and love and love and love yourself and others, no matter what

3. Thou shall drop the story and open through any feeling.

4. Thou shall give and receive and be okay with both.

5. Thou shall hug and kiss.

6. Thou shall know thy heart virtue, express it and experience it every day.

7. Thou shall be committed to having a direct experience of Truth and desire it the way someone whose hair is on fire desires water.

8. Thou shall know you are wonderful and so is everyone.

9. Thou shall let the Wisdom within guide you every moment.

10. Thou shall be ok with disobeying the above commandments that is, thou shall feel neither guilt nor shame if thou disobeys the above commandments and if thou does, be ok with that too, and open through that feeling also.

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My Next Book Signing

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sat, 16 May 2009 04:50:52 GMT

Date: May 23rd, 2009.
Time: 3 to 4PM..
Location:

University of California, Irvine Student Center Room Lido Isle B
Corner of Pereira and West Peltason, Irvine, CA

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How do you keep your heart open?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 19:44:02 GMT

Through being playful, meditation, prayer, visualization, chanting, singing, writing, dancing. Sometimes I also caress my own heart, and whisper, "I love you."
:)

Tags: QaR, heart, love, openness, world, compassion

Book Signing

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 21:29:21 GMT

I will be doing my HeartSpace Poetry Reading, Book Signing and
Mini-Workshop to celebrate the launch and publication of my book,

"Experiencing Divinity, Sharing Awakening" containing poems, prayers
and stories I wrote.

Date: March 27th

Time: 7PM to 8:30PM.

Location:

COMMON GROUND
14051 Newport Ave. H
Tustin, CA. 92780
Phone: (714) 573-2546
Bookstore (714) 573-2540
Cost: Love Offering

I am so so so very happy and so excited! :)

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Where do you see spring in your life?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 21:21:46 GMT

The Birth of my New Book! Yay!

Tags: QaR, spring, march, equinox, rebirth, newness, seasons

Beloved

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 16:44:33 GMT

Beloved, you are here now. I love you. I love you so much! :)

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The Eternal Song....new poem.....or......song?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 05:19:03 GMT

There is a reason why

executioners

are not allowed to look into their victim's eyes -

they are usually hooded, or shot from the back.

The fear is the fear of

That eye-contact

Reminding one of the eternal song singing within the heart:

"I have loved you before,

I love you today,

I will love you later."

There is a reason why modern warfare

uses long-range weapons.

The fear is that of 2 enemies ending up

in the same trench,

glancing, even, for a split-second, into each other's eyes,

their weapons dropped,

simply sharing a cigar,

Their hearts singing

The Eternal Song:

"I have loved you before,

I love you today,

I will love you later."

There is a reason why some people look down

when talking,

or look anywhere

but me.

The fear is the fear of

That eye-contact

Reminding one of the eternal song singing within the heart:

"I have loved you before,

I love you today,

I will love you later."

The first time I looked into your eyes

was the first time I melted and melded into the Oneness,

our hearts singing,

"I have loved you before,

I love you now,

I will love you forever."

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What does it feel like to live in the future?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 07:22:15 GMT

Yay! I get to be the first to respond! :) I'd say that the future is now present, but the past is never present, and so, I'd rather live in the future than the past. :)

Tags: QaR, future, self, feeling, experience, presense

Where is your name from?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 06:09:41 GMT

It's a hindi/sanskrit word. It means golden, precious, sparkling. :)

Tags: QaR, name, meaining, parents. story

What does your body want to say to the world?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sat, 28 Feb 2009 16:10:24 GMT

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you so so so much! :)

Tags: QaR, body, message, communication, speaking, writing

Share the story of your life, using only six words.

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Fri, 27 Feb 2009 19:13:56 GMT

Experiencing Divinity, Sharing Awakening.

Tags: QaR, biography, life, living, writing

What is one thing that there are no words for?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 19:11:32 GMT

God or Truth or Reality or Love or Me.

Tags: QaR, words, new, experience

What will you never regret?

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 18:52:51 GMT

Knowing my heart virtue. Going to the Illumination Intensive.

Tags: QaR, regrets, life, living

Wabi Sabi and other Ways of Looking at Beauty

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 21:39:27 GMT

From my journal, written on May 23rd, 2008:

I had an interesting conversation with a friend the other day, and I was telling her about the American obsessions with thinness and perfection.

I revealed to her interesting words in other languages:

1). In Burmese, there are two words for fat - wa da, which means, fat
and air da, which means ' fat in a beautiful or cute way'.

2. Gordita - spanish word for 'fat in a cute way'. I will have to check with Bernie or Flo about this. I think it also means honey or sweetie, but only if he is a big guy and so looks like a big care bear or teddy bear.

2). Wabi or Wabi-sabi. This is a Japanese word, which means 'broken in a beautiful way', or as stated in "They have a word for it" by Howard Rheingold: "a kind of rough spontaneity, of the kind you might see in a rustic raku pot or some minimalist calligraphy by an old master. l like to contrast it to the kind of studied perfection often valued in the West: high-rises, photorealism, the perfect stuff that looks like it could have been produced by a machine."

Yes, I like to imagine an old broken cup that's chipped in an accidentally artistic way, that has a certain kind of beauty to it. Or a cute little insect that some might view with fear.

Or the words in Brad Paisley's Little Moments, which is my favorite love song in the English language:

And I can't even remember now what she backed my truck into
But she covered her mouth and her face got red
And she just looked so darn cute
That I couldn't even act like I was mad
Yeah I live for little moments like that

Well that's just like last year on my birthday
She lost all track of time and burnt the cake
And every smoke detector in the house was goin' off
And she was just about to cry until I took her in my arms
And I tried not to let her see me laugh
Yeah I live for little moments like that

I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank God that she isn't 'cause how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections it's the sudden change in plans
When she misreads the directions and we're lost but holdin' hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that

When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb
But she looks so much like an angel that I don't wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that

Update:

This is what my Spanish-speaking friend, Bernie, had to say about Gordita:

That's so beautiful, Kundan! I really like the lyrics. The guy who wrote the lyrics must also have a huge capacity for patience. haha!!

Yeah, gordita is a strange word. It can mean cute little chubby girl but it really depends on the context. You can also use "gordita" in a negative way, if you just call a girl gordita... haha.. that's not good. lol. You'd have to be really really close to that person to say that with no offense.

I like that word, wabi. I wish there'd be an English equivalent besides, "broken in a beautiful way". lol.

And these were my responses:

Kundan Chhabra at 1:36pm May 24 Yeah, I have a co-worker and good friend who calls her boyfriend, now fiance, gordita, as he is quite.......big.

Kundan Chhabra at 1:40pm May 24 English keeps growing bigger and bigger as it always incorporates directly words from other languages. For example, the Indian word 'Bazaar, which means big outdoor market. So, hopefully, someday, 'wabi', will be incorporated into the English language, as widely used as the Indian word 'Namaste', used often as a greeting by those who attend New Thought churches and other alternative spiritual communities.

Kundan Chhabra at 3:29pm May 24 I read about this word 'wabi' when I was only 16 or 17 years old in Howard Rheingold's "They Have a Word For It!" and it totally shifted my world-view, which was of course the book's intention, and for the past 11 or 12 years of my life, I have been using this word often, though not verbally, but often in my thoughts, sometimes unconsciously, without voicing the actual word itself, like when I look at something and think, "Oh my God! That is so beautiful!" that others might not really think as beautiful.

This clearly shows to me that the word is more than just a word, it is a belief, an idea, a way of looking at the world.

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Inspiring/Uplifting Videos for You, for Everyone

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 06:07:18 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPNmIBaZVfM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WsZaYy4ipok

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VbCBJ05gdwc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-HlzKaJR_g

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1D3ejwQiVg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kq2ekdBQdKo

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Memo to God

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 05:50:14 GMT

I come to you with both love and confusion in my heart. Some days I feel certain. I feel your love and peace. I am grateful for life. Other days I am lost. I question things. I worry. I procrastinate. Do you test me or do I test myself? Is there a deeper meaning to life? Are we truly on the edge of evolutionary leap in consciousness or am I needing to believe something that is not there because I am delusional?

Is confusion a delusion? One day I am perfectly happy and mentally peaceful and the next day I am so self and other critical that I want to have a head replacement. Am I headed in the right direction? Is something happenning here? One day I think nothin is happenning and the next day I think too much is going on. I think you can see the problem.

Free me from this back and forth mental mania. My heart can no longer stand the bondage of my mind. I hunger for your continuing joy and constant peace. I have become your fruit and cannot bear to be taken from your vine. I have tasted the divine and can no longer quench my thirst with earthly wine. Liberate me from my fluctuating states of consciousness so that I might dwell permanently in your love and tenderness.

Please heed my need and get back to me ASAP!

~ Anne Sermons Gillis, author of the book "Offbeat Prayers for the Modern Mystic" whom I also interviewed today on her Path.

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Last Night as I was Sleeping

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 23:27:40 GMT

So, today, I interviewed one of my favorite poets/authors - Mirabai Starr - translator of the Spanish mystics such as St. John of the Cross and St. Theresa of Avila - Mirabai's introduction to her translation of the Interior Castle is one of the most incredible pieces of writing I have ever read! :). It was really exciting and breath-taking to interview her since I began the interview with a prayer, and I felt the Divine throughout the interview.

So, I asked her, near the end of the interview - what Spanish poem do you reccomend which you like?
She reccommended to me the following poem. It is truly amazing!

Last Night As I Was Sleeping by Antonio Machado

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt-marvelous error!-
that a spring was breaking
out in my heart.
I said: Along which secret aqueduct,
Oh water, are you coming to me,
water of a new life
that I have never drunk?

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt-marvelous error!-
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures.

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt-marvelous error!-
that a fiery sun was giving
light inside my heart.
It was fiery because I felt
warmth as from a hearth,
and sun because it gave light
and brought tears to my eyes.

Last night as I slept,
I dreamt-marvelous error!-
that it was God I had
here inside my heart.

Translated by Robert Bly

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Oneness Poem

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 22:57:29 GMT

Oneness Poem by Kundan Chhabra

She is the light in my eyes...

A bird lands on her fingertips...

She is the sweetness in my heart

Water floats underneath her body...

She is the drops in my tears.....

Wind rustles her hair.....

She is the smile in my cute face....

The honey in the air plays her lips....

She is the ecstasy of my Being.....

Pleasure is felt as I touch her.....

She is the knowing that I am Everything, that I have Everything

Fullness is felt as the I AM moves into her, into me, as Us.

IN THE OCEAN OF LIGHT, WE FLY.

IN THE STARDUSTS OF LOVE, WE RELAX.

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Watermelons

http://iloveyou.gaia.com — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 21:56:16 GMT

Green Buddhas
On the fruit stand.
We eat the smile
And spit out the teeth

~ Charlese Simic, one of my favorite poets since he is so clever. I am currently contacting well-known living poets to interview them.

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